lots of things happen for last wk... break up wit Joey... n i still can't get over it till now... but i wun try to salvage tis relationship for sure... cos i respect her decision... i do believe tat she do think bfor she act... i do wish to know a better answer... but i'm not allow to do so... i do really hope tat time will heal me... i'm back to my life of being a single... but i'm experiencing a downturn in my life now...

i hate tis kind of feelin... my office com had given up on me again... tis time rnd is the hard disk... try to save it... but can't... i'm totally very angry abt it... all my hard work r just lost just lky tat... n the worse part... i need to do closin for the month of march soon... wat the hell n fucking happen to me now... i will b workin lky a DOG at office doin all the febuary report again... n now march report soon... how i wish tat i no need to go to work... a bored life i hav now... instead of clearing my works... it tonnes up again... wat the fuck... i really starts to hate myself... a failure in relationship... n now work too...

i think i'm goin to giv up everytin tat i had done for myself... tis yr is just not my yr i think... i'm goin to cancel my leave tis tuesday just to finish up my work... which actually i shall celebrate my b'day happily tis yr... but ends up it wun... cancellation of leave n everything... fuck my life... how i wish tat i can turn b the time now... dun think i'm goin to celebrate my b'day tis yr... i really hate my life for now... i'm such a failure... damn it...

dated: 22th March 2009 11.33pm





decided not to blog but to just chng song... hee... will blog tis wkend... just no mood now...





take a look at Yue Zhen's blog n do tis quiz...

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

dated: 15th March 2009 1:09AM





decided to post now... i'm in a very super bad mood now... my mood is spoil by my parents... ther goes my wkend... just at home resting watchin tv... just finish the show n intend to on the net... they start nagging again... everyday see the computer u not tired we oso tired... wat the hell.. i'm lky using the computer for work... yea i do play games... but tat is lky after i finish my work... for relaxation purpose... while wkends i use it to relax but not by playin games... wat the fuck...

i'm lky totally pissed off by them... 1st thing... almost everyday i'm home late from work... reach home i still checkin my mails n everytin... yet if tis is wat u all called playin games... thn i relly hav nothing to say... now i'm always at home during wkends to rest... n to stay at home wit u all so as making sure tat i wun b too workaholic... yet u say tat i'm always at home... now u all keep on asking me goin out... fine... i go out... went out wit frens... yet u all always say tat i always go out wasting money... wat the hell man... stay at home oso wrong... go out oso wrong.. wat the fuck... i'm really gettin tired of all the craps tat u all hav... i shouted at my parents today... cos i wanna tell them tat i'm a working adults alredy... i know wat i am doin... it's not as if tat i can't think of wat i am doin now... at least i knoe wat is bad n good for me... even though not fully... but at least do i get the basic respect from u all... no i did not... u think tat is fair for me...

now wat i'm thinkin of is tat... yea i am the youngest in the family... my sisters r all high flyers... both havin high pay... but wat i am... i'm lky a slump in the hse... earning less thn wat they r... so wat... i'm happy wit it... had u all respect for wat i am... exmaple... choosin for my jobs... i wan to work in F&B industries... but u all say tat it's better for me to work in the company tat i am workin in now... had the whole family to convince me... askin me to work in tis company... askin me to help n learn from them... well... tat's wat i am doin now... yet... u all say tat i dun hav any improvement... but did both of u see wit ur own eyes wat had i done... i think the answer is no... if both of u see it... u all wun say such things to me... now tat both of u say tat might as well i go out n stay n not to stay in tis house anymore... find... i will do tat soon... no worries...

now my mind is set... i will go out from tis hse soon n not to stay wit them le... since wen i'm not doin my part as a son to the both of u... if tat is wat both of u wan... i will do so...

dated:3/8/2009





Shall start off tis post from my best fren's b'day party last friday... went to Crew Room at selegie to celebrate my best fren's b'day... ask Joey baby to join me... but she can't make it... so went ther alone... drank 3 cups of bourbon plus 3 shots of Martel... n tat's it... i need to call it a day as i still need to work the following day... but it was a havoc man... wit the 6 brothers arnd... wen it is not goin to b havoc man... of cos not to forget... Alan bro... in the cup itself... i only put in the bacardi hor... the add ons of vodka is by Justin n the martel is by Gary... hahaha... n from wat i know... u r really high after tat... but dun b shocked as tat was the 1st time u see me take the challenge of 5secs Martel... hee...

On Saturday... it's Joey baby turn to go out n hav fun... while i went out to queensway wit my parents n 2nd sis to buy a pair of croc sandal for my niece... while my 2nd sis manage to get her running shoe... i do believe tat baby do enjoy herself at the gathering wit her frens oso... while on sunday... i went to Bugis awhile to meet Yuan Zhen mei... quite a rush sunday for me though... long time nv had such a rush one... hee... nv get to exercise during the last wkend cos of the bad weather condition...

Went to town on tuesday... saw the Google phone... had the rush to buy it... but ends up nv cos it has no 3g... i intend to chng to a new hp again soon... mayb changing to blackberry... well... tat means... if i do chng to blackberry.. i will b a super workaholic... which is not gd... so i still need to consider it carefully...

well... guess tat's it for the time being... just b from basketball game... shall go n rest soon...

cheers,
JR

P.s: miss u Joey baby darling...